In the last year I’ve graduated college, was unemployed for a few months, got the internship of my dreams, moved to a city I’ve wanted to live in since I was 13, was unemployed again and lost out on a lot of jobs I really wanted.
Until recently I’ve been lucky enough to usually get most opportunities I go for. I know that isn’t normal for a lot of people and I am so appreciative that life has always worked out for me. I guess the last few months have been a long time coming, but that doesn’t mean I’ve been handling it well.
Shout out to my friends and family for listening and responding to every text and call, I’ve really been milking my misfortunes and I know a lot of you have been going through a lot worse.
While my problems aren’t solved, I’m done letting them kick me in the ass. I’m getting out of bed every day, eating healthy and I’m going to get back to doing things that make me happy.
I love writing, taking photos, improvising – really anything creative. In the last few months I’ve had absolutely no desire to do the things that I love and that’s been weighing on me. Starting today I’ve decided to do one creative thing a day (Mon – Fri). Even if I don’t feel inspired, I’m doing this.
Being creative is a lot like going to the gym (I think, I really haven’t been to the gym enough to know). From what I hear a lot of people feel good after going to the gym, especially on the days they really don’t want to. Well, a lot of my favorite creations have come from the days I forced the art out of myself. We’ll see if this works.
Also – I know a lot of my friends and family are not comfortable with sharing their emotions and probably think I’m annoying/weird for always oversharing, especially on the blog. I’ve always found comfort in seeing that people are going through the same struggles as me, and honestly it’s therapeutic for me to put all of this out there.
Anyways, thanks if you made it to the end of this post. And feel free to check out my Instagram for my *beginner* photography @notelenapanyard.